Sunday, July 31, 2005
thE fRuStRaTiOnS iN mE.../Sat library trip
not enough! i need more time...haiz...too many tutorials...so little time...wat do teachers think we are? Superheroes? I dun so..not even superheroes can get their jobs on time...u may be thinking that since i am so free to blog...why dun i use this time to do my hmwrk...but hello? even superheroes need some rest...i woke up early to do my pw stuff...then after tat i will have to bury my head in bio,math,lep tutorials...it will be like tons...and i have to read my books and newspapers...all in one day??? how am i supposed to have this power to do tat??? i have less than 24 hrs...argh!!!yesterday...i went to SRJC with jasprit to see the hougang laughing club for pw...gasp...we were too late...all of them went home already...but we did not make a waste trip...cos we got hold of some info...lucky us...
later tat day...i went out with ong & hui to sengkang library to return & borrow books...happy to see hui cos i hadnt seen her for a long time...guess who i also met up with? hahaz...it's my foster bro...aikxin...he looked the same...same hairstyle...same attitude...heard tat he was doing quite well so good for him... :)
as for hui, she seemed quite upset with school...cos she was dealing with some "teacher problem"...hope she dun worry too much and prove to the teachers tat i am "not as bad as u think"! hui...believe in urself!
bought a new hp pouch for myself...cos my previous one was very dirty...cnt wash away the dirt...so have to buy new one...three of us had a great time together...shopping around compasspoint...oh ya...something embarrassing happened to me...i actually spotted somebody wearing the same shirt as me...i do wonder how wld i react if i encounter this kind of thing...i thought it is really nothing...but i still feel a bit embarrassed...hehez...i manage to shun away though...
i found a CIP to do finally...being a conservation ambassador in zoo...quite interesting...anyone interested can tell me...but hurry...cos place limited...hehez...aiyahz...need to blog off liaoz..
tat's it at 3:07 PM
Friday, July 29, 2005
Sleeping MacHinE
exactly 50 mins later, i will reach hell. hohoho...cos my mum's gonna meet my tutor. Guess she will faint when she sees my atrocious results...no doubt...here i am...in the sch library...waiting for time to pass by...dreading every minute...i juz dun wan to get my results slip...i am so SO tired these few days....never get to do much homework cos i'll always fall asleep once i hit the sofa...so everytime i'll try to pia all the homework during the weekend...then i cnt enjoy!!! aRgH! juz last night...i tahan until 2am...juz to do my PW...then i nearly dozed off today in sch during lessons...cnt enjoy today too...cos the result slip will get me killed first...I have to wake up very early tml for PW...where got enough time to sleep....and loads of tutorials are still waiting for me...this weekend is really a goner...
mid-year examinations evaluation talk....the vp showed us the statistics...many ppl sure suffered due to GP (i am one of them...) and the promoting criteria need a pass in GP...ok...i failed by a tiny bit...cos i really wrote rubbish...my mum already nagged at me for tat...so i think i have to read more GP stuff...i believe i got the ability...to score well for GP...miracles do happen on me...hahaha(eg:'O' levels...) feeling kinda moody too...cos maybe it's myself to blame...i feel lonely and sian easily...i like my class now...however...not as much as my past classes...maybe i still cnt find my sense of belonging yet...my true self is still hidden somewhere in me...hmmm...juz need more time i guess...
Jue Dui Superstar is a must watch...although i dun really have personal favourites...but i do admire derrick & junyang...sad tat wei choong was out...i really think he sang well...and of cos...he became more handsome...hehez...like derrick's dance moves and junyang's voice...as for the gals...my previous fav...ruth was out...but she was obviously the weakest so no complains...now i began to like kelly...cos she really got the groove and voice...so all the best to the contestants....
went CO practice this week...got new members...and half the no. joined my instrument...cos the teacher said so...but it was so unproportionate...cos erhu has so few ppl...then zhong ruan have like 7 ppl...very weird...but anyway...i managed to play the new song...actually i enjoyed being in CO (but now a bit sian lahz..)...cos the ppl there are kind and easy-going...we are like one family! btw...here's a pic of nyjcCO...
We took this pic during the lunchtime concert in SCH...heard tat we were even featured on TV!!
Presenting to u....NYJCCO...can see me?
The pic on the right is my CLASS! O5S1A!!! We took this during the J1 level camp...as u can see...gals dominated the class...hahahaz...O5S1A rox!
tat's it at 2:09 AM
Monday, July 25, 2005
eQuaTiOns PaGe
ironically, i came up with my own equations...1st to intro is jc= no life + sian...i simply felt this way...after a long day in sch today...2 hrs of bio tutorial...going thru DNA...my head almost burst with the info...too much to bear...now my headaches are making me sick...have to rest for a while..I had a mini debate wif my mum when i reached home...i was advising her not to talk too much on parent's day tis coming fri...cos my mum is rather chatty...then we began to digress to results... i noe i did not do very well...she kept nagging me to go for tuition...as i am "anti-tuition" person...i totally rejected her "kind offer"...and she continued to say tat having tuition was a privilege in her time...and if she was me, she wld be so eager to get a tutor...i was so frustrated with her comments and her way of thinking...so here goes my second equation...tuition= good grades? hohoho...i dun think so...do u really think money can buy grades? tuition may work for some ppl...but definitely not me..cos i juz dun have the time and mood...y cnt she understand? i think only good grades can make her speechless...
thought the "war" was over...she nagged at me again...saying i was not concentrating well...slack a lot...though it is true...but i felt so despondent...i mean i really got study...juz tat maybe not enough/not effective...she always dun get to see my "hardworking" side...urgh...i dun believe tat "work hard=success"...cos there are ppl who do put in effort but still fail in the end...so wat's the prob? i had this experience...maybe my hard work meant little..but to me...it's already reaching my limit...hmmm...life=???...study=???
guess i am getting too negative here...but dun worry...i am ok...juz venting my frustations...of cos...my mum and i are ok...we always quarrel over this kinda thing...my life juz bores me...juz too little excitement...so i am turning stone soon...as wat lene said in her blog...everyday is like a routine...such a "fixed" feeling...it's like going sch or going home...even the things u do are the same...study, eat ,sleep, play...haiz...
wat an entry...hehez...focusing on my inner feelings...felt much better typing them out...final equation for u...happy= able to do wat u really want...
tat's it at 2:42 AM
Thursday, July 21, 2005
DePrEsSeD-sation
hate bio prac...tat's the 1st thing i wanna say...hate microscopes! so u guess...i was so flustered for this week's bio prac...have to mount the stupid onion (the purple pigment kept fading off...urgh...)...luckily it was not spa...or else...sure die one...been ultra depressed lately...dun ask me y...cos i am clueless too...but i guess it is juz like a monthly thing u noe...mood swings are not new to me already...so i think i will cheer up soon...hohoho...hope so...i do ponder wat is troubling me...perhaps it's sch wrk...cos the topics are getting harder...and tougher to digest...like maths---thick stack of vectors...chem--kinetics...bio (the worst)--DNA...LEP---"hong lou meng"( damn...u shld see how thick the notes & bk are...the words are sooo micro...) but i noe...jc life is like tat...and i have to accept it...haiz...
feel guilty tat i always skipped "project 645"...(in case u dun noe...it is actually TAF...) cos i cnt wake up early to reach sch at 6.45am to run around the track...so i decide to do it in the afternoon...also have to train for NAFA...(gonna have retest during aug...) jia you to me! now co has resumed...we are learning a new song...not very hard but got "A diao"...yuck...i became a slacker too...but i feel comfortable in co now...cos i made a lot of new friends...can talk lahz...hehez
had pe today...yeah...it's dancing time...i learned the waltz...which is like so confusing...cos i am not really dancing material....but managed to master it (sorta)...too bad all our partners are gals...hahahaz....went to took passport photos for the HSK thingy...last time...they only need 3 photos...now they need 4...juz dunno why they need some many...keep and admire our faces??? siao lohz...my face really sux (the photos are terrible...)...cos having many pimples these few days...haiz...i think the only photo tat i can look pretty is neoprint...hehehez...
dun wish tml to come...cos have to do EoM during pw lecture tml...i am sooo unprepared...y dun i juz have a fairytale...? haiz...dunno wat to get for yr's bdae & probably a belated present for wm...muz go crack my brain...and hope ah ma can recover frm her sickness soon... hmmm...guess i'll blog this weekend again... :)
I think i promised to scan some photos i took in malaysia in my blog...my short trip to cameron highlands....here goes....
hehe...this is me and my dad at the hydroponics farm...look at those veg...so huge man...and definitely fresh...my mum bought a few home...the veg tasted great...yumyu... & as usual...i was acting cute in the photo...hahahaz....
ok...the photo on the right is me and my dad again...hahaz...in case u dunno wat's in the background...it's actually the strawberry plantation...cool right? too bad we cnt eat it (muz pay money wat)...so juz touch lohz...hahahaz...
ahem...this is me...hohoho...act cute again...i was actually in the rose garden...but i noe...u cnt see any roses...cos the roses are at another side...but i like the green leaves (behind me...) very nice mahz...this is the last photo...cos the others are quite blur...so long then! :)
tat's it at 4:28 AM
Sunday, July 17, 2005
@m I oLd?
i dun wan to grow old...haiz...i want to remain 16 forever...cos the female leads in anime are always 16 yrs old...and they always got shuai shuai bfs...ahh...envy...maybe u can say i am going boy-crazy again...but i guess this is wat gals do...hoho...smtimes...i juz wonder how it feels like being "da shan" by guys...maybe i will freak out or act cool...or even give my hp no...(hey...i not cheapo lohz...)hahaz...it's not tat i am a despo or wat...maybe juz to have the experience of being attracted to the opp. gender...dun tell me tat i am too young for tat hor...i am getting old man...:P...maybe u dun understand?nothing much happened these days...i juz came back from bedok...hanging out with my cousin...passing her the bdae present...and glad tat she liked it...we ate and shopped...she is really mature and easy-going...so looking forward to hang out with her soon...
yesh! i bought a new mouse for my com ytd...so now i can use my own com with msn messenger...yeah! i am back!! i missed my com very much lohz...hoho...now i can surf and do watever i want to my com...hahahaz...
haiz...i need to do CIP...i am despo cos i want my cip hours...it will look good in my testimonial mahz...cos now tat i am a nobody in my class and cca...i seriously need cip hours...(i dun really want to depend on my studies...heheh) so fellow comrades...got any good cip for me to do...muz tell me!!
hmm...recently...i was told tat i seemed to slim down liaoz...really?? but i dun think so...cos i weighed myself so many times...and my weight remained the same lehz...nevertheless...i still treat their comments as compliments..hahahaz..
aiyahz...now i forgot what i want to type liaoz...guess i type quite a lot already...i will crap more next time...need to do homewrk lohz...i juz dread sch!!
tat's it at 12:14 AM
Thursday, July 14, 2005
UrGh weEK
okok...i noe...it's time for me to blog...maybe...i shld blog often...hehez..to attract more loyal readers...dun shun my blog...look forward to it! finally...my tagboard is working...so buddies...start commenting...i will be waiting... :)Let's start off with last weekend...went out with ong & dor...we sang our hearts out in kbox...lalalala...shopped our hearts out (nearly...) and had a great time...yeah...so i really cnt wait for the next library trip!!
and abt sch...it has resumed to tutorials and lectures...now for PE...i am learning social dance...hohohoz...sounds interesting right? haha...but guess wat...we have to do fitness training lohz...duh?? juz dun get it...y muz they make life difficult for us? not everybody is so physically inclined wat...i have to suffer with aches and pain...boo hoo...
NYCO had a lunchtime concert a few days back at SCH...heard we were the first sch to perform...with a pathetic no. of 20 smthing students...we went there and gave our best...i was surprised tat there was quite a crowd (gdgdgd!) i was almost scared out of my wits...cos i am the only zhong ruan player...(meng tak was sick on tat day...wah lao...left me alone!) and my skills sux...luckily i managed to pull it off...so...bravos to me??? hehez...
dunno if it's bad luck approaching me...an irritating lad appeared in my life...hehez...he is actually my classmate...juinn...yesh...another ignorant guy who want a taste of my mighty "suaning"...i better train intensively...to suan him...hohoho....(charlene!! muz help me!) juz witnessed my sch's SC investiture...i feel tat same investitures...but are so different in pri, sec, jc...the higher the level...the more grand is the event...hmm...y arh?
oNe of my lep teachers, miss tan, is leaving ny..transferring to moe...kinda sad tat she is leaving cos she is a nice teacher...today was her last day...so many students gave her cards...organising parties...it was such a touching scene...and her words really motivated me somehow...so all the best to her!
haiz...feel tat i was slacking this whole week...when i reached home...i will lock myself in the room...speed watching my anime...(damn nice lehz...really...warning: highly addictive!) then when i finally got the will to do hmwrk...fatigue overpowered me...so i juz konk off...have to buck up lohz...bye bye to my weekend :( !
I think i blog quite a lot hor...pls dun get turned off when u see a lengthy entry of mine...hehez...u noe mahz...i am naggy...hehez...:P
tat's it at 1:09 AM
Friday, July 08, 2005
aNiMe CrAzY!
came back from malaysia not quite long ago...i enjoyed the trip...cos i get to visit many farms and gardens...simply fascinating...but i will blog the details next time...cos i decided to upload the photos i took there...to put in my blog...hehez...Initial D really rox...went to see with ong...great to spend time with her...maintaining our strong friendship! mOving back to the movie...jay chou and edison really blew me away...shawn yue was not bad too...hehez...car racing seemed really exciting...so really never regret watching it...those who haven watch...go watch now! thE movie i feel like watching now is FaNtastic 4...hehe...juz luv superheroes movies...
actually...i think i am going anime crazy...really...no joke...as if addicted...hohoho...i manage to watch Howl's moving castle...really nice...no wonder ong kept saying it's good...howl's really handsome! then...i couldnt resist the temptation of buying Fushigi Yugi OVA...so i bought it...along with another anime series...Pretear...since the second anime box is at half price...(there goes my money! haiz...but worth it...)
I finished watching all...FY OVA is in english...so i cldnt really adapt...cos the tv series i watched was in mandarin...but nevertheless...it's really good...Pretear is great too...talking abt a girl having 7 knights to assist her in saving the world from the evil disaster queen...hohoho...of cos....my fav plot comes in...one of the knights falls in love with tis gal...hahahz...but there are some twist and turns along the way...and there are only 13 episodes...kinda similar to FY...but the story and plots are different...really a nice anime series to watch! I realise i like anime abt fantasy romance...simply mesmerising...anime watching has become my latest hobby...juz tat...having this hobby will make me broke! argh!
got my new class tee...hot pink...wore it today...and for sure...we attracted unwanted attention...hahahz...weird faces everywhere...but who cares...as long class spirit is there...hehehz...exams are over...lessons resuming...holidays gone...got back some results...as usual...sux...but expected...gonna blog more abt this next time...
tml gonna meet ong and dor for library and kbox...too bad ping cnt make it...hope to see her during our next outing...miss my wife...hehehezzz...gonna enjoy tis weekend...then i have to get pumped up for sch...humph